To be or not to be
While my client is laying on the massage table. I can feel her Kidney/Bladder meridians being low in energy. These meridians are connected to our first chakra. Chakra's, being energy vortexes in our body. The first one, when functioning well, open and allowing the energy to flow through.
It helps us to stay connected to mother Earth. The question to be or not to be? Is related to this chakra. Are we present or not? Do we wish to be here or not? Conscious or subconscious.
In her case she has a fear for life. Making her redraw from it. For the visible eye she is here, but energetically she is not. So her depleted meridians tell me.
Her fear for life, goes further back. It is connected to her having the belief that she is not good. Imprinted in her early youth, by not feeling supported and seen for who she is.
Imagine thinking you are not good all the time. This makes you feel insecure, powerless and weak. Perhaps you recognize this belief or not.
I have noticed that many have this belief, somewhere (hidden) inside of us. Boycotting a free flow of life energy. A strong connection with earth. Which is providing us with her fire energy. This energy delivers the fuel we need to start going. It is there in abundance for us. Which we cannot receive when our first chakra is closed or malfunctioning.
Often we start to work hard, get in control, to keep ourselves moving. But this only exhaust us more. And makes the part in us that feels fear withdraw deeper. We are doing to ourselves what we have felt in our earlier youth: we are not acknowledging ourselves, taking care of ourselves and loving ourselves. A downward pattern, that makes us feel even less worthwhile.
When our first chakra is blocked we can feel tired, exhausted, anxiety, sad or even depressed. Good thing is there is a way out of this pattern.
During the session wherein I used my healing skills, and knowledge of the meridians, I hold the space for her system to transform. After the session my client feels grounded and relaxed. Due to more space in her system, the energy can flow again. Her belief did not go away in one session, but she is conscious about it now. And goes home with exercises for body awareness. Connected with her body, she will be able to feel. And we need to feel to know what our body, mind and soul need to function well.