Safety first

Safety first

Having felt unsafe in my very early youth
I started to spend a lot of time
away from home
My physical and my internal home

No longer feeling the comfort and support that come along with being connected with home
I believed I needed to take care of my self
Having no idea how to do so
I started to run and hide

Until all collapsed and I needed to start dealing with being here now
Discovering how to be safe not by running or hiding but by getting to know all of my self and learning how to take care of me. 

Life brought me all kind of circumstances that created the time and space to discover myself
It took me on an incredible journey

On which I visited light and dark places 
Inside of me and around this globe
Feeling my likes and dislikes
Learning to let love be my protector 
My guide

Showing me when to say yes or no
How to set boundaries
And how to let others in again
The most terrifying, beautiful trip ever

Showing me my defense mechanism and addictional behaviors
That often started as helpers like my illness, the retreats, the diets etc
But sometimes turned into escape mechanism later

NOW on the other side of unsafety 
There is no desire to run or hide anymore 
So here I am
Being me. Normal simple me 
The desire to be anything else or more than me has gone

To feel safe to be YOU
Is what I wish every soul on earth
That is why I wish to create the space for you
To feel safe and accepted as you are
Feel welcome to enjoy this space

The cover up (Dutch blog)

The cover up (Dutch blog)

Guiding signs

Guiding signs

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