My surrender

My surrender

A month ago I felt it was time to move on. Within 10 days I had packed all my stuff, stored it and started this new adventure in South America. Did I have a plan. Not really. Only a very strong knowing that the moment was NOW. No doubt about that. 

It almost feels as if Ibiza was my preparation to this adventure. Being a small island, close(r) to  my home country. It was already an adventure. Not knowing the island or anybody on the island while arriving. This time I have crossed the atlantic. To live in a big city. 

Montevideo, where I am new. Not knowing its streets or people. Not knowing why I am here exactly. Just feeling I “need” to be here.

So taking it day by day. Moment by moment. Allowing this new life plan to unfold. Being open and receptive. In the moment. 

Now that I write this I realize this had been my process over the last years. Reconnecting with the quality of surrender. Letting go of control or whatever we use to manipulate life instead of allowing life to flow…through you, around you, above and below you. Living life as the child you are. The child of this universe. Here to play its game. With compassion, courage, commitment and perseverance. 

There is a plan. I have seen my life purpose many years ago very clearly. But this was also the moment I realized that it was not up to me to worry or control how to get there. That was the moment I started to surrender. It changed my life. Since then I have been guided all over the planet. Always receiving in the moment what I need. To fully align with this purpose. Oh yes, i not always could receive this guidance. Thinking I needed to interfere. Sometimes it first needed to get rough, until I was willing to let go of my resistance to surrender. 

Coming from a fear for authority. Human experiences where I was overruled. But I learned that surrender to the Universe, the higher go(o)d to all, has nothing to do with overruling, dominating. it has everything to do with love. Being love(d). For the universe loves us and knows us best. The universe is not some entity outside of us, it is the energy that we are made of. When we reconnect with this intelligence, this energy, we reconnect with this love. This enormous gift of being taken care of. 

Which does not mean you do not have to do anything anymore. No it means that you can tune into what you need to do, say, give, receive etc. It not necessarily means that your life will be without any obstacle. Since obstacles are there to strengthen your spirit, to reunite with its power. To learn how to feel and be love(d) no matter what.

So here I am opening myself for yet another adventure. Whatever It may bring I know I carry everything inside me to fulfill it. To learn and grow by living it. To fall and get up. To love and be loved. 

I feel blessed by all the opportunities life has and is giving me to learn how to receive all of its wonderful gifts. So I can pass them on.

 

How your no, can be a big YES!

How your no, can be a big YES!

You can light up the dark

You can light up the dark

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